entry 03
Like I mentioned the other day, one of the main things I am working on in my ongoing campaign to Be Less Crazycakes is getting out of the house. This is harder than it might seem to normal people, I swear! I mean, as of last May I wasn’t leaving the property without somebody else coming and taking me out, so I’ve made leaps and bounds, but it’s still something I have to work on consciously — whereas I get the feeling it’s something that, you know, most of people take for granted.
So far I’ve figured out a number of things a number of strategies that seem to work pretty well. The three things that consistently work to motivate me to get out are a) classes b) meeting up with people and c) running errands. Something that <I>doesn’t</I> work at all, apparently, is just telling myself that I should go out and take a walk. I need to have a goal in mind, and a clearly defined plan, all set up in my mind. (CONTROL ISSUES AHOY.) And for whatever reason, just going out doesn’t fit into that structure in my head.
So the next problem is, of course, what can I use as a motivator on days when I don’t have class, or a friend to meet up with, or important errands? Because right now my instinct is to make up new errands, which … ends up with me spending money when I shouldn’t, which is unacceptable.
Today I went out to buy mechanical pencils and to check if the comic book store had the issues I wanted in. I got the pencils, and they were sold out of the comics I wanted, so I was halfway successful on those fronts. But I also ended up buying a book, a frappucino and a sandwich, not one of which I needed. Why do I fail so hard at financial responsibility?
The weird pseudo-spring continues outside. It’s a little too warm to be wearing my hoodie around, but not so warm that I don’t feel weirdly awkward without it. Surely this is unacceptable to all reasonable people.
February 25th, 2008 at 6:00 am
truthfully? this is the reason i was SO mad at myself when my Temporary Seasonal Job turned out to be just that.
i’ve been working on Going To Things – at the rubber rose, mostly, and with friends (who i’ve met at the rubber rose, and also at the unitarian universalist youth group that i used to go to). and knitting group. and derby. only one of these things (derby) really costs money, and even not that if i volunteer.
now, you know i’ve always been a Group person, so it’s a bit more obvious for that for me, but why not see if there are Awesome (or even mediocre!) eugene things you could do? events at said comic shop, things on campus, book clubs? standing commitments that really aren’t (where you’re getting to know people by seeing them every weekish, but haven’t actually promised to be there consistently, and you don’t need to panuc and not go back if you’ve missed a few weeks in a row and hi i live in your head) can be awesome.