ghosts are good company

It feels so delightful to be productive, even if in small ways.

Tonight I went to an alum event for New College of Florida, cubbie’s school, and it was amazing how self-conscious the event made me feel about my strange path through college, considering New College’s reputation for its liberal beliefs on education. For those of you who just tuned in, I did a few credits of college in high school, and then I enrolled in The Evergreen State College, where I did some coursework and some summer work until I realized that I needed to take a year off to get some health stuff figured out. After that, Evergreen wasn’t really a place I felt safe going back to, so I moved to San Francisco to attend City College of San Francisco. My time at City has been largely successful, and I have learned more at City, maybe, than I did my whole time at Evergreen. So, good. I’ve been thinking about how awesome it would be to be able to contribute to this community, to teach on a community college level, so when I found out about the Grow Your Own program at City, I was excited - but I don’t think I’m eligible. The information about it is here.

Sometimes I feel like the struggle to get where you want/need to be, academically (and in terms of careers as well) can be much more difficult than the education/job itself. All I have to say to that is “bleh.”

i’m about to watch the star wars holiday special.  i’m hoping that it will bore me to sleep, but i’m afraid that it will be so bad that i will be riveted with awe.

solstice, christmas…  was crazy.  i had a lovely time christmas eve with cubbie’s family - they seemed to love the quiches and stuffed mushrooms that i brought to the table, and i felt included in all of the celebrations, which was wonderful - especially since it was also ok that i went to lie down in the middle, when i needed a rest.

and then we got here, and i’m afraid that we weren’t, or i wasn’t, quite as supportive of poor little sick cubbie.  he’s sick and my mother is sore, although healing well, and my grands are tired of being such good caretakers and we all just need a nap!

i don’t think i’m ready for this star wars special.  it’s been four minutes and there have been baby wookies eating cookies and that’s nice, but they are kind of annoying, when they’re being scolded in…  wookish.

BORING.

i really missed my seattle family.  it’s been the first holiday in a few years without seeing them, and that’s so odd.  i don’t even know the next time i’ll be able to get up there.  graduation, maybe.

wookies?  boring now.

bye.

cubbie and i are in florida visiting his family for christmas.  it is a little too warm for me here, so i’m currently sitting under a fan and listening to the wind blow through the trees outside of the open window.  i’m sick, i have a cold which has been around for far too long.

the funny thing about this cold is that it started at about the same day my mother went in for surgery, and so i’m hoping that when she gets to leave the hospital, i’ll not have a cold any more.  at least, i hope that’s the way it works - if the cold lasts until she is fully recovered from surgery?  i’ll be very frustrated at the end of those few months.

we head that way on christmas.  i was afraid to fly on christmas, at first, but it sounds like it’ll be fairly quiet on the plane, so that will be good.  hopefully mum will feel well enough to celebrate!  if not, we can all stand around the bed in a made-for-tv-movie type fashion and send her air hugs, so that we don’t injure her with lovin’s.